bleh

I realize I've been pretty horrible this week. Not just in feeling horrible, but being horrible. Can't exactly say it's been my best week at all. Not even close. So, if I've been horrendous and irritable, I hope it looks up. I suppose it has a lot to do with just being so piled up with things, since next week is ridiculously busy. Preparing for all of that is to mentally tiring. The mind can only hold so much. Not to mention, I feel like I've been neglecting a lot of things I ought to be caring about. Yes, I know I have two midterms to worry about. I just find it so hard to choose one. Choose as in, decide which one I ought to be paying attention to. Still, paying attention in chem is getting harder and harder. I always feel like my professor doesn't really know what's going on sometimes. Without her PowerPoint slides, sometimes I doubt if she really knows what she's talking about. It definitely doesn't help me understand the material any better!

Aside from feeling horrid, I missed my mandatory community service! Really bad if you need it to stay in some programs at school. A very good and helpful one at that. So now I'm freaking out because I don't know what the consequences are. I mean, I waited for a long time, and the person never showed up. Similarly, I think the person I was supposed to be waiting for thought I never showed up. I waited where I was supposed to, and so I hope that will make a difference. I don't want people to think I'm THAT irresponsible about that. I really need my counselor to call me and talk about it. She said she'd call today, but I feel like every second is an hour, and I can't seem to relax. Not at all. I'm getting jittery, so while I wait, I can't study. So here I am, typing away, hoping to get my mind off things. GAHH. I realize my posts make less and less sense, or it seems to be just a random rant, so unimportant. Yay.

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