bleh

I realize I've been pretty horrible this week. Not just in feeling horrible, but being horrible. Can't exactly say it's been my best week at all. Not even close. So, if I've been horrendous and irritable, I hope it looks up. I suppose it has a lot to do with just being so piled up with things, since next week is ridiculously busy. Preparing for all of that is to mentally tiring. The mind can only hold so much. Not to mention, I feel like I've been neglecting a lot of things I ought to be caring about. Yes, I know I have two midterms to worry about. I just find it so hard to choose one. Choose as in, decide which one I ought to be paying attention to. Still, paying attention in chem is getting harder and harder. I always feel like my professor doesn't really know what's going on sometimes. Without her PowerPoint slides, sometimes I doubt if she really knows what she's talking about. It definitely doesn't help me understand the material any better!

Aside from feeling horrid, I missed my mandatory community service! Really bad if you need it to stay in some programs at school. A very good and helpful one at that. So now I'm freaking out because I don't know what the consequences are. I mean, I waited for a long time, and the person never showed up. Similarly, I think the person I was supposed to be waiting for thought I never showed up. I waited where I was supposed to, and so I hope that will make a difference. I don't want people to think I'm THAT irresponsible about that. I really need my counselor to call me and talk about it. She said she'd call today, but I feel like every second is an hour, and I can't seem to relax. Not at all. I'm getting jittery, so while I wait, I can't study. So here I am, typing away, hoping to get my mind off things. GAHH. I realize my posts make less and less sense, or it seems to be just a random rant, so unimportant. Yay.

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Sense? This post doesn't make any sense

bleh I have the flu. For once, it actually came early this year. Normally, I'm sick around Halloween. Now that I think about it, it's good I'm not sick around that time. Not like I go extreme partying or anything, but who's going to pass out the candy to the children? Yess. That is my Halloween job. Fairly exciting. I was on the phone with my friend earlier, and she was at Party City, and I laughed so hard when she told me they were selling Gabriella costumes for High School Musical. Curious, I asked her what the costume actually was. I mean, was it the lab coat outfit she wore from the Scholastic Decathlon, or what, because I couldn't think of anything else that seemed "costumey" and she told me, that essentially, the costume was of a red dress and heels. Oh. Like from "We're All in This Together". Hmmm. I really don't think people will notice what you are dressed up as though. Then again, if your guy friend dresses up like Troy in his basketball jersey or your other friend goes as an East High cheerleader, then well. there you go. wow this post does not make very much sense. I think it's because I'm sorta just writing this as a way to pass the time, waiting for the movie to load. It's called "Beast and the Beauty". It's about this couple, and the girl is blind. The guy is not attractive, and he tells her that he's an attractive guy, that looks like someone he knows. She ends up getting an eye transplant (how common, exactly is that?) and she thinks her boyfriend looks entirely different! Hilarity ensues. I hope. I haven't seen this movie yet, but the premise seems fairly interesting. Who knows.

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school? what's that?!

Sad to say... that has been my thoughts lately. I've finished the Slam Dunk manga. I've finished Spring Waltz. I've picked up new shows to watch for the Fall Season. And I suppose that's the problem. I really need to stop relaxing and just hanging around all the time. Seriously. Seriously. I took a chem test on Friday, and I can't really say I feel confident about it at all. I think this may be the first time I MAJORLY fail a test. That's reallly bad. I just didn't feel like chem was important, or worth my time. I suppose that's the problem. I think Bio is 10000x more important because it's the first class that REALLY counts. I mean, it's the one class you need to take before doing anything else. So yeah, it is ridiculously frustrating. I can't lax up on that anymore. Curse me and my need to be caught up with pop culture and Korean Dramas. It really is a drug. I suppose I should just come home late now and do some studying to do some good in my life.

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