bleh

I realize I've been pretty horrible this week. Not just in feeling horrible, but being horrible. Can't exactly say it's been my best week at all. Not even close. So, if I've been horrendous and irritable, I hope it looks up. I suppose it has a lot to do with just being so piled up with things, since next week is ridiculously busy. Preparing for all of that is to mentally tiring. The mind can only hold so much. Not to mention, I feel like I've been neglecting a lot of things I ought to be caring about. Yes, I know I have two midterms to worry about. I just find it so hard to choose one. Choose as in, decide which one I ought to be paying attention to. Still, paying attention in chem is getting harder and harder. I always feel like my professor doesn't really know what's going on sometimes. Without her PowerPoint slides, sometimes I doubt if she really knows what she's talking about. It definitely doesn't help me understand the material any better!

Aside from feeling horrid, I missed my mandatory community service! Really bad if you need it to stay in some programs at school. A very good and helpful one at that. So now I'm freaking out because I don't know what the consequences are. I mean, I waited for a long time, and the person never showed up. Similarly, I think the person I was supposed to be waiting for thought I never showed up. I waited where I was supposed to, and so I hope that will make a difference. I don't want people to think I'm THAT irresponsible about that. I really need my counselor to call me and talk about it. She said she'd call today, but I feel like every second is an hour, and I can't seem to relax. Not at all. I'm getting jittery, so while I wait, I can't study. So here I am, typing away, hoping to get my mind off things. GAHH. I realize my posts make less and less sense, or it seems to be just a random rant, so unimportant. Yay.

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Sense? This post doesn't make any sense

bleh I have the flu. For once, it actually came early this year. Normally, I'm sick around Halloween. Now that I think about it, it's good I'm not sick around that time. Not like I go extreme partying or anything, but who's going to pass out the candy to the children? Yess. That is my Halloween job. Fairly exciting. I was on the phone with my friend earlier, and she was at Party City, and I laughed so hard when she told me they were selling Gabriella costumes for High School Musical. Curious, I asked her what the costume actually was. I mean, was it the lab coat outfit she wore from the Scholastic Decathlon, or what, because I couldn't think of anything else that seemed "costumey" and she told me, that essentially, the costume was of a red dress and heels. Oh. Like from "We're All in This Together". Hmmm. I really don't think people will notice what you are dressed up as though. Then again, if your guy friend dresses up like Troy in his basketball jersey or your other friend goes as an East High cheerleader, then well. there you go. wow this post does not make very much sense. I think it's because I'm sorta just writing this as a way to pass the time, waiting for the movie to load. It's called "Beast and the Beauty". It's about this couple, and the girl is blind. The guy is not attractive, and he tells her that he's an attractive guy, that looks like someone he knows. She ends up getting an eye transplant (how common, exactly is that?) and she thinks her boyfriend looks entirely different! Hilarity ensues. I hope. I haven't seen this movie yet, but the premise seems fairly interesting. Who knows.

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school? what's that?!

Sad to say... that has been my thoughts lately. I've finished the Slam Dunk manga. I've finished Spring Waltz. I've picked up new shows to watch for the Fall Season. And I suppose that's the problem. I really need to stop relaxing and just hanging around all the time. Seriously. Seriously. I took a chem test on Friday, and I can't really say I feel confident about it at all. I think this may be the first time I MAJORLY fail a test. That's reallly bad. I just didn't feel like chem was important, or worth my time. I suppose that's the problem. I think Bio is 10000x more important because it's the first class that REALLY counts. I mean, it's the one class you need to take before doing anything else. So yeah, it is ridiculously frustrating. I can't lax up on that anymore. Curse me and my need to be caught up with pop culture and Korean Dramas. It really is a drug. I suppose I should just come home late now and do some studying to do some good in my life.

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I love Daniel Henney. Period. I really should stop watching dramas when I could be studying for a midterm.

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about blogging

The other day, I was browsing around facebook, and I realized how many of my friends use blogs. I know, tons of people have them, so statistically, at least one of friends would have one. Well, it just so happened, some of them have xangas, and I realized I had an inactive account, not accessed since... say 2004. It's been a long time. In any case, I logged in and I just started to read some of the old entries. It surprised me how I thought about things, or the way I thought about things. Some things stay the same, I mean, I talked a lot about movies I saw (well not really in this blog), the everyday occurances of my life, etc. It was like a blast from the past. I also thought it was hilarious how I thought the world would stop turning if I didn't blog for one day, even if my entry for that day was me fangirling or just a picture I liked. I wonder if I will ever look back 3 years from now and just read these entries, and see how much I've changed. Or not changed. It's really interesting to see how petty some thing really were, looking back, and how some things never really changed at all.

>>>>> On another note, I think my classes are okaayyy. I mean, chem is a pain to begin with, but I already know I will need to put a lot more effort into doing things. I can't slack off as much as I used to. I need to get on top of things. No more distractions. Bio is a really good class. I just love listening to my professor talk. Then again, he's British. Nonetheless, I love my group in Bio labs, and I hang on to everything my professor says. Tuesdays and Thursdays are definitely my favorite days.

[<3][Le sigh. 6 episodes left of Slam Dunk. ][L-O-V-E Rukawa!!!] [so amino acids.....][getting addicted to "Time between dog and wolf"][I still need to finish watching Hana Yori Dango. haha]

I'm in for a rough ride....

Ouch. The first day can always be pretty tough. I guess I'm just irritated that it didn't turn out as I had thought. I figured getting to school relatively early would get me a decent parking spot. Ehhh. Apparently the freshies don't understand how we do it here. Nonetheless, I discover my lab class is cancelled for the day! Excellent. I'm sleep deprived and I have nothing to do for the next 3 hours. Lovely. Still, it was really good to see the people I wanted to see, and catch up on things and what not. I should make note of this: never wear flats on a warm day. My feet were killing me. Not to mention the air conditioning in the bio class was well... not performing as I wanted. Le sigh. I don't even have chem yet and I feel like bio alone is intense.

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old school vs new school

I can't really say that I've been watching anime very much since I was obsessed with Rurouni Kenshin in the 8th grade. Nonetheless, I still take some time out of my day to watch anime sometimes. And like I've previously said, I do feel a tad nostalgic and I've been watching old anime, the good old ones I like , for example: Akazukin Chacha, Gensomaden Saiyuki (season 1), Hunter X Hunter, Slam Dunk, Sailor Moon S, Trigun, Fushigi Yuugi. To be honest, the only "recent" anime I've seen is Death Note, Samurai Champloo and Powerpuff Girls Z (well, half of it). I don't really have much of an interest in Bleach, Naruto or Full Metal Alchemist or that Haruhi thing. A bit blah for me. In any case, I wonder if it's because those older animes are simply better, or maybe it's because I liked them when I was younger, therefore, I'm emotionally attached to them? hmm. Because I'm thinking, if its because I'm just attached to them, then maybe the experience would be different when I watched it the second time around. Not necessarily. I admit, my perception of the characters and the story is a tad different. For example, I really like Akazukin Chacha and every episode seems to follow a very distinct pattern. At the beginning, there's comedy in the school, and then eventually there's some monster who attacks, Chacha transforms in the Princess Holy-Up and defeats the monster. As a kid, that pattern was totally awesome. Now's it's a bit redundant after the 10th episode, and I normally skip the part when she defeats the monster. When I watched Slam Dunk for the first time, I admit, Sakuragi was annnoying. Seriously. I suppose it had to do with the fact I was a Rukawa fangirl. Watching it again, Sakuragi is more likeable, and Rukawa's not the only character I like. You know, maybe I like the older shows more also because those shows aren't so bloody commercialized. I am so bloody sick of seeing some Narutard, or seeing a Haruhi cosplayer, or someone who knows the dance from the show.

*sigh* I suppose I'm just biased. School starts tomorrow, so I can't help but feel some type of helplessness. Geez.

[image from Slam Dunk of the Shohoku basketball team, from left to right: Rukawa Kaede, Akagi Takenori (Gori), Sakuragi Hanamichi, Mitsui Hisashi, Miyagi Ryota]